Libby Says...
While I had a lovely time at my Lotusphere weekend, I left with one indelible thought in my mind: you can't go home again. It's not to say that I can't find a way to get a job in the Lotus technology universe, and can't once again spend my Januarys in Orlando with all the lovely Loti and friends. But what I forget occasionally, although I've learned the lesson more than once, is that when you go back to something after leaving it for a while, both you and it have changed. You can go to it - move forward to it - but you can't go back to what it was. This isn't necessarily a bad thing. I feel that success in the world is somewhat predicated on forward motion. However, that doesn't change the fact that, somehow, it can be disappointing if you make the mistake of expecting things and people to be as you left them. It's made me a bit melancholy this week, as I tried to figure out what could possibly be making me sad -- I spent time with some people I truly care for, I saw lots of friends and acquaintances, I talked to lots of people about career/job opportunities, I had good food and drink... What's to be unhappy about? As usual, only your own attitude can truly make you unhappy. If I don't try to fit this year into the patterns and templates of years' past, and look at it as a new door to walk through inquisitively and positively rather than a scuttling back to the safety and happiness of an old door that may still be open, I feel much better about the week, my life, and my possibilities. That nostalgia is an impossible challenge to live up to, so it's best to leave it in the scrapbook and make new expectations, memories, adventures. Perhaps this time, the lesson will stick. Permanent Link to this entry: Permanent Link
I'm about to go head's-down on the thesis work again, but I just wanted to make a few comments first. Number one: Notesgirl mail was down for a day or so, so if you've sent me mail in the last 24-48 hours and not received a response, please drop me another note. Sorry! Lotusphere was so fun, even though I was only there for the long weekend. Lots of great visiting time with Kitty and Warren and Liz and Rob and Bill and Richard and Michael and Terri and Dec and Susan and Duff and brief fly-by visits with others....and, and, and. Not enough time, not enough visiting, but definitely better than last year when I missed the trip completely. Spoke to lots of folks about finding my way back into the Lotus business... Nothing concrete yet, but we'll see what works out. Hated that I missed so many folks I'd hoped to see - Rocky and Glen and Luisa and Philippe, and, and, and. Still, thanks for so many who gave me a warm welcome (back) and all those who had positive, supportive things to say for the future. Permanent Link to this entry: Permanent Link
This just in... Libby will be at Lotusphere. At least, I will be for the weekend. I hope to get to see as many of you as possible. Same old Notesgirl.com email address if you want to get in touch. I'm in from around 10:30 Friday night (landing at the airport) to Monday morning. Permanent Link to this entry: Permanent Link |
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